After a tearful and loud ride home, I fed Eliana and she is now sleeping in her crib! Yes, I did say crib! I don't know if it will be a long nap or not, but at least it is a continued effort to get her to sleep there rather than in her swing. I went in search for food for lunch. I was discouraged enough to consider skipping lunch and taking a nap. Eliana didn't sleep great last night, and I'm a bit wiped out from the night wakings. I then realized that napping first would create a bigger problem later if I didn't have a good milk supply for Eliana. I considered calling a friend or family matter to relay my day, but the helper's song came back to mind. I didn't need encouragement
from a friend or relative. I needed help from the Lord. I got out my journal and wrote all of Isaiah 41:10.
Fear not, for I am with you;
Be not dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you,
Yes, I will help you,
I will uphold you with My righteous right hand. NKJ version
Isaiah wrote this after he has told the Israelites that they will be captured by the Babylonians for decades. God had warned the people to come back to Him, and they had ignored Him. Now they were going to face devastating consequences. But, God would not leave them during their captivity. He would be with them and bring them back to Israel.
I meditated on God's word and prayed for Him to be with my discouraged heart. I lifted up family members who are going through a hard time. I thanked God for Kyle. When I was done, my level of distress was lifted.
Eliana woke up while I was typing. On to the next challenge/opportunity for growth I go.